Contrasts – Whenever I look around I feel something around me is not exactly behaving as to how it should be. It came in my mind this way. The other day when I started writing out my mind, I was pissed off with the fact that I had my mind boggling over a hundreds of thoughts. I almost heard all of it shouting loud within me claiming it to be the one I should start with. I got irritated and tried closing my mind so that it is emptied of all the thoughts. And suddenly I got something new and better in it. I kept thinking:
You block your mind to allow thoughts to come in. (I blocked it so that nothing comes in. I didn’t expect a solution).
You block your mind to allow thoughts to come in!!
You block your mind to allow thoughts to come in!!!!
How can something so erratic bring in peace? Sometimes I wonder as to how can things look so different when it actually needs to convey something else. And alas it conveys what it wants to. These happenings might sound weird for an onlooker but I am really amused by the way it exudes its concealed beauty. ..
Sometimes you feel like being perfectly the opposites at the same time.
Look into yourself, your mind is perplexed and you need it to be in peace. But for that peace within you, you feel like yelling out loud.
Sometimes you actually need to escape the suffocation within you, but for that you confine yourself to closed spaces.
You walk in the crowd for searching your own self.
You go on a fast drive so that you can analyze your life in a slower pace.
You want to talk to people expecting them to just listen to you.
You listen to loud music hoping that it would nullify the frustration within you.
You run away from people to ward off loneliness.
You want to hate some person but end up loving him always.
You start from your home to fight with someone, but end up caressing the person.
My father once said that if you want strength then you need to have troubles because these troubles are the ones that make you strong. This again: You need strength to ward off troubles but you get it when you are full of troubles…
That’s why I said Life is a simple and stupid web of contrasts. You want something you’ll have to undergo the pain and frustration within you to get it. And when you get it you are the happiest person in this world… but just for a second. You see someone else with something else and you need it. So ultimately it depends on what you want? The coconut shelled life which is hard to crack but has lots of tenderness inside. Or you would need a spongy life where your leg dips and you trip at every step of yours.
